+X+ Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, peoples faces burnt out
like sun spots on raindrops +X+
I'm outside sitting on my roof again. Today went terrible.. I saw Quinn at school, well…actually I bumped into him. His face was so pained, but then it turned cold. His moods change so fast, it hurts so bad. I never know what to think with him. I never know where were at. Right now we're not anywhere good. He doesn't want me, I can tell. I cant think about this anymore..
+X+ Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind Left the only worries I had in my hands away form the light in my eyes Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel cause feelings mean nothing +X+
I can hear my mom and step-dad fighting downstairs. They're ruining the silence, I bet everyone can hear them. I get irritated quickly as all the noise creates chaos in my head. I set down my notebook and go inside. Its even louder in here. I get my cd player and put on my headphones. I open up my top drawer and take out some pills. I use to cut, but once Quinn found out he started to do it to. Since then I've quit…kind of. I swallow the pills, I don't know what they're going to do, I have all different kinds in the same bottle. I like surprises.
+X+ Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind Ya today is on my mind I can't get away Feeling so lonely breaking a part of this love in my heart +X+
I wake up as someone pulls into my driveway. I feel like complete shit. They start to knock, I'm just going to sleep through it. The knocks get louder…once again, more noise to disturb my mind. I get up finally and open the door, Quinn's getting into his car.
"Quinn?" He just stands there confused. He acts as if I called him or something. He starts to leave again…It must be fun for him to break my heart over and over.
"You cant keep doing this to me, I get hurt to…its not all about you" O no, I instantly regret saying that. He's not suppose to know he means anything to me. Once he knows he has me, hell ruin me. Again and again and again. I turn around quickly and try to get inside before he responds.
"Adrian wait!" He came over and wrapped his arms around me. I stand there stiff and uncomfortable, I don't know what to do.
"I miss you, and I need you"
Why did he have to say that. Of everything he could have said, he choose to say he needed me. Doesn't he know ill hurt him, just like he'd hurt me. Ive lost him, got him back, and lost him all to many times. Even now…I don't have him. Not really anyways. He says I do, but I don't. Right nowhe isn't himself, he hasn't been for a while. I can tell.
I held on to him tight, then dragged him inside, im to tired to deal with this right now. Im to tired to deal with any of this.
+X+ Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind feelings mean nothing Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind for today is on my mind ya today is on my mind I can't get away I'm feeling so lonely breaking a part of this love in my heart +X+
His biggest problem is insomnia, I wonder if he knows I have a brother. And I also wonder if he knows yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of my brothers death. But what I wonder more is if he cares. Never mind, some things are better off not known
I'm outside sitting on my roof again. Today went terrible.. I saw Quinn at school, well…actually I bumped into him. His face was so pained, but then it turned cold. His moods change so fast, it hurts so bad. I never know what to think with him. I never know where were at. Right now we're not anywhere good. He doesn't want me, I can tell. I cant think about this anymore..
+X+ Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind Left the only worries I had in my hands away form the light in my eyes Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel cause feelings mean nothing +X+
I can hear my mom and step-dad fighting downstairs. They're ruining the silence, I bet everyone can hear them. I get irritated quickly as all the noise creates chaos in my head. I set down my notebook and go inside. Its even louder in here. I get my cd player and put on my headphones. I open up my top drawer and take out some pills. I use to cut, but once Quinn found out he started to do it to. Since then I've quit…kind of. I swallow the pills, I don't know what they're going to do, I have all different kinds in the same bottle. I like surprises.
+X+ Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind Ya today is on my mind I can't get away Feeling so lonely breaking a part of this love in my heart +X+
I wake up as someone pulls into my driveway. I feel like complete shit. They start to knock, I'm just going to sleep through it. The knocks get louder…once again, more noise to disturb my mind. I get up finally and open the door, Quinn's getting into his car.
"Quinn?" He just stands there confused. He acts as if I called him or something. He starts to leave again…It must be fun for him to break my heart over and over.
"You cant keep doing this to me, I get hurt to…its not all about you" O no, I instantly regret saying that. He's not suppose to know he means anything to me. Once he knows he has me, hell ruin me. Again and again and again. I turn around quickly and try to get inside before he responds.
"Adrian wait!" He came over and wrapped his arms around me. I stand there stiff and uncomfortable, I don't know what to do.
"I miss you, and I need you"
Why did he have to say that. Of everything he could have said, he choose to say he needed me. Doesn't he know ill hurt him, just like he'd hurt me. Ive lost him, got him back, and lost him all to many times. Even now…I don't have him. Not really anyways. He says I do, but I don't. Right nowhe isn't himself, he hasn't been for a while. I can tell.
I held on to him tight, then dragged him inside, im to tired to deal with this right now. Im to tired to deal with any of this.
+X+ Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind feelings mean nothing Now all those feelings those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind for today is on my mind ya today is on my mind I can't get away I'm feeling so lonely breaking a part of this love in my heart +X+
His biggest problem is insomnia, I wonder if he knows I have a brother. And I also wonder if he knows yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of my brothers death. But what I wonder more is if he cares. Never mind, some things are better off not known