Am I worrying for nothing?
Are all these fears unjustified?
Am I merely wasting my time wondering?
Are all these thoughts only going to ruin us?
Should I just trust that you are true?
Should I risk getting hurt again?
Should I consistently call you?
Should I play hard to get?
Should I pretend I don't love you?
Can I believe it when you say you love me?
Could this all be one big mistake?
Could this be my chance?
Could everything fall into place?
Is it possible that I am worried for nothing?
Do you really love me?
I have no answers to these questions
that are forever floating in my head.
I love you so very much
and I don't want to screw this up.
I don't want to lose you
and I don't want to push you away
but I don't want to be hurt again.
I never want to feel the pain of heartbreak again.
I don't think I could bear it
and I'm not sure I'm willing to risk it.
Maybe ending this before I get too involved is the only answer
but I'm already involved because I love you so much.
I don't want to ruin this
whatever it is we have
but I'm not sure it can possibly be worth this pain
So I will keep asking these questions
and praying desperately for an answer.