I wish I could say I miss you
I wish I could take it all back
I wish I could take away your pain
I wish I could make it better again

But I can't-
I'm shouldn't-
I wouldn't-
I won't

Because that would be a lie
And I would be
no better person for it

Your pain and hurt
it's my fault
I let you down
I rejected you
I pushed you away
I pushed you to the edge
Will I push you over?

hypocracy in the lowest form
my friend
of the past
my friend
that is no more

I'm sorry,
so sorry
but that is all it is
words
with emotion
but emotion is not the kind of strength
the strength I need
the strength you need
and so my apology is useless
empty
hopeless
lost

I am sorry
my friend
who is not
I am sorry