Opaque Shadows
It's snowing out
Silver sphere shines beneath
The clouds
Opaque shadows
Blocking out the stars
My last dream
Is that it'll snow
And never stop
The moon will glow
And never fade
All I can hope for
Is something beautiful
To look at
Something to tide me over
To postpone reality
You stand there, everyday
Talking to your friends
You notice me
Ask about her
Though my mind has forgotten
My supposed love
As she forgot me
Purposefully
And while you talk to me
About your music
And unusual interests
With shards of your past
My mind betrays me
Cascading false hope
If I could accidentally
Hold you once
Just a hug
To say goodbye
Kiss your lips
You say are too thin
Touch your hair
That never falls right
Tell you
The body you hate
Is perfect the way it is
Finally know
The person you've written off
Self-hatred
Hold your hand
Feel the scars
Against your pale wrists
One more secret I still keep
You've passed me
Slide your glasses off your face
So he'll know you're beautiful
And I hate him
For not knowing it
And for not telling you
Every single day
That you don't need to starve
Or make yourself bleed
And I hate you
Because I never will
It's snowing out
Something else to watch
Another pretty sight
To tide me over
All of this will pass
But give me
One last fantasy
Before I face
Layers of shame
An empty room
Where I say I've given up
I don't believe in love
Slide a rose under your door
And wait for him
To take the credit