Confessions & Wishes
"What are you doing here? I thought you were going to Michigan?" I asked Angel as I came to stand by her side outside the coffee shop.
"Dad decided not to go because the roads are really slick. So we're staying home for Christmas this year," Angel said,
"Any particular reason you're. . .uh standing out in the cold in front of the coffee shop?" I asked smiling.
"Well, it's kind of weird actually. After I found out we weren't going to Michigan I just sat around the house after we had opened presents. And all of a sudden I just felt an urge or something to come here," she said shrugging.
"Really? That's not weird at all. I. . .kind of felt the same thing," I said.
"I don't know why I had the feeling that I should be here. But I did and now I'm here wondering what to do," she said chuckling.
"Well we're here. I guess we'll just wait and see. But why don't we do it inside?" I suggested.
She laughed and nodded her head. We stepped inside the warm coffee shop and found 'our' booth and sat down. We decided to order some hot chocolate later on. As we sat there suddenly it all became clear to me. Now was my chance to confess my feelings for her and set everything straight. I knew that I would never 'get back on my feet' if I didn't confess to Angel. I would just have to take the chance and leave the rest up to God.
"Angel, I think it's about time I confessed something to you. You see. . .ever since we met I've. . .," I paused for a moment not really knowing what to say. She was watching me attentively and I felt as if I was in the spotlight.
"Angel, I've had a crush on you ever since I've known," I blurted out.
"I know you have," she said smiling.
"You. . .uh. . .you did?" I asked with my eyebrows raised.
"Yeah I did. I'm sure you probably thought you were hiding it but. . .really it was very obvious," she said with a smile.
"Oh," I said laughing softly.
"You were, and still are, so sweet and I'm very flattered," she said.
"Look Angel I like you a lot," I said.
"I. . .like you a lot too. I think I've known all along," she said.
"I'm. . .kind of crazy about you," I said.
"It's odd how people spend so much time together and never see what is front of their very nose," Angel said.
"I was so jealous of you and Jason. I even. . .titled Jason. . .Mr. Sparky," I said glancing up to see her expression.
"Mr. Sparky? That's hilarious!" she said laughing.
There was a moment of silence and then finally Angel broke the silence.
"So, where is this going to go? Are you trying to ask me out or something?" she asked.
"I really don't know. It's just all so confusing to me," I said.
"Marcus, I care about you very much. You've been such a good friend to me. You're the best friend I've ever had. And here lately I've been realizing how much I do care about you," she said.
I smiled and for a moment I wanted to ask her out because it all seemed so perfect. But there was that little voice inside of me saying "Wait, it's for the best, at least for now." I decided to obey that voice because I knew He knew best.
"Angel, I do like you. . .a lot, as I've already said. But I'm still young and I'm just not ready to have a relationship. I mean you and I still have many years ahead of us," I said.
"I understand Marcus and I didn't expect us to up and get married or anything," she said chuckling.
"I know but I just really think it's best if we just remain friends for now," I said.
"That's fine with me Marcus. And who knows? Maybe we'll be married someday," Angel said smiling.
"But. . .there's one thing that I would like to do," I said wringing my hands nervously.
"What's that?" she asked puzzled as she gripped her cup halfway full of hot chocolate.
"This. . ." I said and my voice trailed off as I leaned across the table and kissed her lightly on the lips.
I quickly pulled away embarrassed. But as I did my arm hit her cup of hot chocolate and it spilled all over the place and the now cool liquid began to fall of the table and right into our laps. We both jumped up to escape the liquid. I glanced up at her.
"I am so sorry!" I said.
She looked up at me and starting to laugh softly. Then her laughter grew louder and pretty soon we were both laughing hysterically.
"I don't think it was that funny but I just. . .feel. . .like laughing!" Angel said as another wave of laughter hit her. I laughed with her and it felt so good to be laughing again.
It was in that moment that I finally did realize something. I had been so caught up in trying to win Angel's affections that I had missed what was important. I had centered my life on winning Angel's affections when I already had her love, which came in the form of friendship. Things hadn't turned out exactly as I had hoped they would but I knew everything that had taken place was for the best.
I had been hoping to find love but what I had really found was a bosom friend in Angel. And I hoped God would let me and her remain the best of friends throughout the remainder of our lives and I also hoped that perhaps one day we would come to love each other. A real love, not a crush, not an infatuation but real love. That is my only Christmas wish and I believe that wishes do come true. Don't you?
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