"I want to save you, I need you to save me too."
Crystalline dreams floating on the
wind of tears I never cried, catch
my heart in your words and hold it there.
I can pretend forever that this fantasy
won't fade into the bleakest of skies.
But eventually this cotton candy bliss
will disappear slowly until I open my eyes
and realize it is gone.
Just like you, will you fade out to a black screen
or will you disappear in flashes of
Blank paper stares at me, glaring
accusing me of scarring and marring
its once pristine snowflake white perfection.
Or I could cut it into angelic wings
beautiful, but still only paper.
Enough to lift me
in this weakened state.
Because they are not tainted with anger
only with a drop of Heaven.
Perhaps that is enough
strength to carry me.
Blood in my mouth, copper metallic
slice through my tongue and so
too my words which would have been
in sleek cursive inky letters if they had
found their way to paper.
Sounds uttered blinking in their
"I promise I won't forget…"
Taking this rusty nail and driving
it through my heart I think
I would if I had the power,
but I will not for I do not.
Stars mocking the way I am moved
to tears at the slightest sign of unrest
Don't join their ranks, I plead.
One more against me would be water
on my cardboard soul.
Would destroy it, it would wilt like
a dying flower placed on a
death's depressing solitude melting
its petals of joy.