I remember feeling
Like a river
Muddy waters churning
Charting an inescapable course
I remember thinking
There's no turning back
This is it
The point of reckoning

Now I have a stream
And mild curiosity
There was the careening possibility
Of what we could have had
And now there's the calm suggestion
Of what I have left

As much as I hated the pain,
I miss the intensity
The inevitability
The sense of rightness
Before it all came crashing down

Now I have a calm suggestion
A slight curiosity
An unassuming rivulet
I miss your intensity