I am alone

and it is cold outside.

I stare ahead

into the nothing that surrounds me.

I want to go home

but I have no home to go to.

I want to need

but I need nothing.

I want to live

but life is a lie.

I want to feel

but it hurts too much.

I am alone

and I always will be.

I am alone

but I don't want to be.

I am alone

and it doesn't matter.

I am alone

and I feel better.

I see a light

and I know I can be saved.

I see the light

but I turn my face away.

-Laura Ellis (12-26-04)