The Moment

© battousai24 (Chi Samaniego)

The moment has come
Once again, like before
My body feels numb
And my heart contains my sorrow
My steady heartbeat, growing louder by the second
It's driving me insane... (insane, insane)

I feel it starting to overcome me
The hunger, the inescapable lusting for blood...
My blood...
My tears of crimson
It's driving me insane... (insane, insane)

I feel it now...
I feel the silver
I feel the cold
Brushing and scraping my skin
How wonderful this music is to my ears
How wonderful this feeling of numbness is

... but I feel it
I feel the pain
And I see it...
I see the blood
Oh, words cannot express this sight
Oh, the beauty, incomparable
My own blood, mixed with my tears...
And my pain, mixed with sorrow
And my lust, mixed with love...

This is the moment I've been waiting for
The two ends finally meet
Will I see you now?
Will I finally get to see you, my beloved?
Now? Will I?
After waiting for so long...
Will I see it in your eyes?
Your love? Your care? Your understanding?
Or will it be hatred, my love?

Hatred in your eyes as you look at me...
Will it be a smile I'll see?
Or a grin?
Or a look of disgust as you set your eyes on this fallen being that I am?
Will I be yours forever, and you, mine?
Will you take me with you, to eternal bliss?
My love, my darling, my beloved, will I see you this time?

At this moment...
Just before my last breath...
Will you come here?
And tell me you care?
Will you tell me you love me?

Tell me...
Will I see you soon?
Will you come to me when I reach the boundary of life and death?
Will you ask me to stay?
Will tears stain your lovely face?

Now...
I am here... on the edge
I'm waiting...
Just like how I've always been
Will you cry for me when you hear?
When you hear nothing...
When the steady beating of my heart suddenly stops...
Will you utter the words I've been wanting to hear?

I'm waiting...
I'm on the edge...

I'm waiting...

I'm waiting...

I'm waiting...

This is the moment...
Where my life is mixed with my death...

I've been waiting for so long...

My love, unreturned...

I sink into the darkness
I close my eyes...

My dearly beloved,
for you, I've waited,
and for you...

I die.