The Final Analysis
"Kara that's just awful! I'm so sorry I went off on you like that." I sniffled overwhelmed by remorse. She didn't deserve any of it. Christian was such a dog.
"Hey, you two, no tears." Colin sat behind me gently rubbing soothing circles into my back.
"Yeah, you're right. But I'm not talking to you right now. Come on Kara, facials!" I screeched leaping off the bed.
"Wah? Why aren't you talking to me? Guys? I want to do facials!" Colin whined. It was great to have the group back even if it was a little dysfunctional.
You have 8 new messages. Press one to hear your messages. Press…Beep. New message Thursday 4:30pm. "Edward, are you avoiding my calls?"
"Ward, who is that that keeps calling," Colin tried to glance over my shoulder at the phone.
"No one important. I'll get back to them in a sec." I murmured feinting distraction with my homework. Of course it was Christian calling, texting, and leaving messages on my infernal beeping phone. I still hadn't decided how I wanted to approach him yet. After all, I wasn't exactly an innocent party in this whole fiasco I sentimentally call my love life. And the things with Kara while awful, were a while ago and certainly not my experience with the oaf.
Then again, hedid sleep with her more recently. I mean is the guy even Gaga for twink or is he totally a muff diver just faking it? How can I be totally sure? At least I cheated with a guy. A guy I had been crushing on for ages and who summarily rejected me. Let's not go down that path again only the bottom of a peanut butter and jelly jar lies that way.
"I'll call you later. I'm busy."
"Is Colin there with you?"
"What does it matter? He's always with me." Silence.
"We really need to talk, NOW!" Christian growled.
"I can't," with that I hung up. Vibrate. Chris.
"Christian, I told you I can't talk right now. I agree we need to sit down and have a pow wow, but-"
"Pow wow? Who says that anymore?" He sneered.
"While your droll sense of wit is endearing ad nauseum, I don't think now is the time to talk about this." I sneered rolling my eyes. There comes the anger barely banked.
"We need to talk about what happened at the party. I think you cantake five minutes of your precious time to talk to your man!" He snarled obviously becoming frustrated with my less than accommodating self.
"Alright, fine. Where and when doyou want to meet?" I sighed. There was just no way out.Might as well bite the bullet and face the music.
"I'll be at your place in five. Hang tight." 'hang tight'? Who says that anymore? Obviously someone has been hitting the I love the 80's on VH1 recently.
"See you then." I mumbled.
"Is Christian coming over?" Colin asked one fair brow quirked adorably.
"Well good. I think you two really need to talk about things. I know you don't like these conversations, but it is the only way to move on."
"Yes, Oprah." I droned trying to wave him off. I was already nervous enough without him adding to the situation.
"You laugh. But I swear you'll feel so much better once you come clean about Rayne and Kara."
"Wait, Kara slept with Rayne too? I'mmakill that biatch!"
"Ward, don't be such a douche! Of course, not! I meant the situation with all four of you." He tried to knuckle my perfect coif. Just then the bell went off.
"Coming!" I hollered dashing down, having temporarily forgotten what was waiting for me on the other side of the door.
"Hey, baby!" Christian growled low and oh so cock stirringly.
He didn't give me a moment before crushing our lips together, plastering my backside to the wall, and kicking the door shut. Mhmmm. There were a few minutes there where I honestly didn't know what was going on. My breath trapped, heart pounding in my ears, chest burning, and the most deliriously delicious sensations in my belly. I swung my leg up to hook around his waist, my cock like a heat seeking missile in its quest to get greater friction.
"Oh fuck, Ward! I want you so bad." He gasped, heated breath rasping against my lips.
Me and every Tom, Dick, and Jane! Talk about a mood killer! Did he have to remind me why we needed to talk? I gently shoved him a few inches back so we could talk rationally. Well as rationally as any two hormonally charged teenaged males can anyway.
"Let's go into the kitchen." I subtly wiped at my lips needing to erase all traces of my recent fall from grace. His hands remained on my hips as we walked silently to the kitchen.
"Do you want a drink?"
"Sure. Water's good!" He said taking a seat at the table. I got him a glass and a glass of orange juice for myself.
"So…" I began awkwardly trying not to look at his face.
"I know you made out with Rayne. He told me. Why didn't you tell me?" His forthright manner left me sputtering and wide eyed. What the fuck? Was I the only one born with any tact?
"I was drunk. What was your excuse for sleeping with Kara? You a ladies' man now?" I returned, my face heating up. I don't know when my lips became so loose. Lord knows I didn't really want him to answer that question.
"I don't know what you're talking about. I haven't done anything with Kara and even if I have been with girls, why should that bother you? I'm with you now. I don't have to choose boys or girls, just someone to love and hold onto." He spoke softly and sincerely. I swear that was the one line to melt my heart. Was he for real? Someone to hold and love? Maybe he hit his head at the party….
"Christian, I didn't mean to judge you. I know you care about me. I care about you too. But you slept with my best friend and neigh near broke her heart. You really hurt her. I don't know if I can be around someone that heartless and cruel. You want to know why I have been avoiding you, that's why. Not Rayne not Collin, it's YOU!" I felt tears coursing down my cheeks even as my lips lay slightly parted and trembling. I wasn't crying because I was sad, I was just so frustrated and angry, it had to come out this way.
"Ward, baby. I swear to you, I've never been with Kara especially since we got together. Admittedly, I have been with other girls since we got together but never Kara. I would never do that to you." His brows were furrowed in distress and his chest leaned heavily on the table as if he would reach across at any moment for me.
"I hate to break it to you, but you slept with Kara before and since we got together. She has the scars to prove it." I hiccupped wiping away my deplorable display of weakness.
"Baby, I'm so sorry. Don't do this. What can I do to fix this? Tell me anything." He begged all but dropping to my feet.
"I don't thinkthere is anything you can do. Don't you see? We were never meant to be. Don't get me wrong, making love with you was incredible. I couldn't imagine being with anyone else my first time." Well there I wasn't being entirely honest as my mind kept bringing up cornflower blues and an adorably boyish grin. "You made it everything it should be and more. I think you don't really know what you want right now and I do." The tears welling in his eyes were gut wrenching. All those wonderful butterflies had turned to lead in the pit of my belly.
"We should break-up."
There I said it. I faced it head-on and said it. There was complete silence as we faced each other across that small table whichmight have been the Grand Canyon for the chasm that separated us at that moment. After a few moments, he just stood up and quietly left. Oh God! What did I just do? I think I made a decision for once in my life, and it doesn't feel as liberating as all the critics say.
"Hey Ward are you okay babe?" Colin was right there beside me.
"Promise me, you'll never call me baby?" I whispered looking up into cornflower blues.
"Alright Ward. Never baby." He soothed giving me a tight bone crushing hug; exactly what I needed at the moment.
"You can still call me babe." I murmured obscenely fascinated with linguistics drawing a few chuckles from Colin.
"Are you going to be alright? I heard the last bit. So, are you going to go and tell Rayne the good news?" I love him for trying to look encouraging for my benefit even as the devastation was painfully etched in his face.
"I thought I would tell you first before we go public. I choose you Colin Stolz." His smile was like the sun after a particularly brutal storm; bright and radiant piercing every dark corner and painting the world with new life and clarity.
"Ward, what are you saying babe?"
"I love you Colin Stolz. You are what I want. I realize I couldn't make my mind up because it was like having a large tub of Ben & Jerry's and then being asked Cherry Garcia or Chunky Monkey. How can either matter when you've been having semi-baked for years! You are my everything, friend, confidant, brother, heart, and soul mate. You complete me unlike anyone else out there. I guess you were so close all this time, I never had reason to look any closer. You are beautiful inside and out. I want you to be my first Colin Stolz."
I couldn't seem to stop myself from vomiting all this corny gibberish. I'll be the first to admit I'm no Cerano but, it was like the floodgates were open and gush I will.
"Oh Ward! Babe, you have no idea how long I've waited to hear you say that. I would be honored to be your first if you will be mine."
"You mean you've never…you know?" I blushed barely able to look at him.
"Nope. There was only one person I ever wanted to do that with and since he never asked, I never did." He husked hands roaming under my shirt.
"Well, what are you waiting for? Let'sdo it like they do on the Discovery Channel!" I purred licking my lips.
"You certainly have a way with words. You don't have to ask me twice." He growled hefting me over his shoulder fireman style.
I'll admit it, I giggled like a girl; a girl who got the Gucci when she'd been willing to settle for Hilfiger.
Thank you to all my reviewers who stuck by this through the years. I have had this finished for months now but every time something interrupted me uploading this to the website. I am glad that it is uploaded and finished. I was thinking of doing Kara and Christian's story next.