I don't believe you when heaven surrounds me

My dreams fan out like poker cards

This risk is worth the taking

But you are bluffing,

Says the voice in my head

My stupid desire, it overwhelms me till I'm

Consumed with these rancid thoughts

These insecure words are repeated

In my brain and tongue

Reaching for what's already there, so

Self-destructive, self-adhering

To the walls of your ears

And you answer, so simply

It cries out with ease

These tears are so happy, they're sad because

I don't deserve this heaven