Killing myself by loving you

Your smile brings tears to my eyes

Tears you'll never see me cry

To watch you fade into the land of nothingness

As you push away my care

I've never felt so helpless

As I do with you

Worry becoming my only friend

With every thought consumed by you

Praying for your survival

A dream that seems so out of reach

Every time you cut the emotion away

The sense of failure

That eats away at my fragile soul

Apologies the only words I speak

My mind blaming my heart

For your painful habits

Saddened by your every move

Please tell me you'll be okay

That one day, the rain will stop

And the clouds that have hidden

The sun for o so long

Will finally move away

But right now, I'll never let you see

I'm killing myself

By loving you