- To Asa "Spade" Williams-- My Love, My Gang Relation -

Growing Edgy…

Feeling the Fear inside You…

Hope gets You through…

Can You handle it?

The Calm after the Rain…

Hearts failing during a Sickness…

You see the Rainbow after the Storm…

Lives go back to Normal…

And it's so Hard not to Cry…

Your Blood…

Your Sweat…

Your Tears…

With all that…

You make a Story,

A Story about who You are…

About what You want to be…

Did Anyone Care?

Did Anyone want to Care?

You feel You are being Ignored…

You Say,

' I can't do this!

This is so hard!

Why don't you understand?

Listen to me!

Help me! Help ME!

I'm trapped in a dream!

The Dream of the Inevitable! '

Again Your heart comes to a Stop…

The Hard Road ahead of You…

A Tear flows down your Face…

You feel Sorry for those you've Hurt…

You hope to change the Past you've Created…

But your Hopes are Failure,

As are your Attempts…

It begins to Rain…

You want to wash away all the Blood you spilled…

But the Stain remains…

You ask yourself,

' Why can't I just wake up from this Dream? '

Suicide can't release You…

Only Atonement…

Atonement for your Wretched actions…

Meditation,

The Serene Sense of Calmness…

The Subtle Love of Another…

The Love for you…

Do you feel the Love?

Look for it!

Escape the Pain!

Find the Love…

And escape the Sorrow…

Find the Love…

And escape Forever…