I'm in the middle of a

dead

girl

twirl

with a smile plastered on my

barbie doll face,

when you start laughing.

You calmly ask when I became so

distant

and

lost

and when I sold my soul

to this half life of happy pills

and smile screams.

Giggling, I tell you...

The night I bled pixie dust,

and commited my beautiful sanity suicide,

was the night you said

nothing

lasts

forever.