"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation." Henry David Thoreau

Solitary Desperation

You hear me laughing

(hide the tears) > > > >

You see me smiling

(hide the fear) > > > >

I look normal to you, right?
How can I tell you that you're wrong? > > > >

I'm here at school, getting straight A's

Working hard, involved in organizations > > > >

You assume I have it all together

That's what you think you've seen > > > >

I'm here, all the time

I'm next to you > > > >

But you don't see me

You don't know me > > > >

I don't even know me

Can't let you see > > > >

You hear my laughing

(hide the tears) > > > >

You see me smiling

(hide the fear) > > > >

I keep everything hidden inside

A perfect mask to cover the mess > > > >

It's getting harder to do when
I'm just a bunch of broken pieces > > > >

It's brutal, trying not to react

The pressure just builds > > > >

I feel the anger in my ears

(hold it, push it down) > > > >

Tears brimming at my eyes

(stop them, hide away) > > > >

Irritation, I want to lash out

(No! Don't hurt anyone!) > > > >

Instead I keep it inside

(just smile a little longer) > > > >

I'll tell you I'm fine

(Don't believe me! It's not true!) > > > >

As far as you know, I'm normal and happy

(can't let it show, oh no, keep it inside) > > > >

You don't know the tears I cry at night

What happens when I turn out the light > > > >

But I can't tell you now

Too late to lose this image > > > >

I'm comfortable, being who you want

We've never really known anything different > > > >

But this thing, this pressure

It's truly killing me > > > >

I just want to escape

Can't face the world head on > > > >

So I wear this mask

It hides my real expressions > > > >

But now I'm losing control

Can't hold on much longer > > > >

You can't see past the wall

(Help me! I'm trapped!) > > > >

It's there, you just don't know

All this hurt I carry inside > > > >

You hear me laughing

(hide the tears) > > > >

You see me smiling

(hide the fear) > > > >

I feel the anger in my ears

(hold it, push it down) > > > >

Tears brimming at my eyes

(stop them, hide away) > > > >

Irritation, I want to lash out

(No! Don't hurt anyone!) > > > >

I'll keep going on in my silence

I'm who you've always known > > > >

But go past the smile, look deep into my eyes

Then you might see, this desperation in me > > > >