-Yesterday to Today-
faithless, loyalless, joyless
these words ringing through my mind
„do YOU believe in God?"
„ I don´t like the idea that I´m not in control of my life"
how does that fit... I can believe that some things were meant to be
and still make my own choices
I can choose to eat this sandwich, go to that movie, to commit suicide
THAT I can choose
I can´t control what others think or do, I can´t know what their reactions will be
I can only guess, claculate
that is my nature
being sure before I stick myself out there... make sure my coordinates are correct
don´t want to be mistaken, don´t want to be wrong
Can you see it now?
perfectionism, creativeness, fear, joy, and surprise
this is me.. my life.. my story