the scent
it lingers as i walk
the fear
coarses through my veins
i see things
that no one else acknowledges
i feel it
the memories of inflicted pain
when it comes
no one will know
it will hurt
but i will keep moving on
it whispers
telling me that i am his
i'll never escape
these chemicals keep me sane
i will tremble
my stomach will turn in knots
barely standing
i will carry this burden...this gift
until the next time...