do you remember

talking until 2 a.m.

sleeping in the car

screaming/singing with our favorite bands?

"smile, emo kid" you used to quote

and just smile and smile

I remember thinking "this could work

for more than a little while"

hiding during a scary movie

hold me close in the dark

dream of love and stars

of beaches and rain

I smell it in the air--droplets

and love I'll never have again

reclusive and cynical

as I once was

not the one you recall

I am what I was