J'ai Ratter ma Chance!
by: trista groulx

J'ai ratter ma chance
I know I don't deserve it
I had all that time in the past year
But I want to know you
As I let you know me
I know I don't deserve it
Je sais j'ai ratter ma chance!
But I still want to know you
The whole you
The real you
Not the saviour I built up in my head!
I want to know you
Not the kindred spirit I thought I had found
But the person behind the man I used to love
The person I hurt when I pushed away
The person who hurt me when he gave up
I know I don't deserve it
I had all the time in the past year
I know I missed my chance
J'ai ratter ma seule chance!
Was it my only chance to know you?
I hope I can have this chance
I missed it the first time 'round
And I'm sorry I let my mind get ahead
But I want to know the whole you
The real you
Not a character I made suit to fit
Cause you know me the best
And I really want to know you
I know I don't deserve it
I should have done it sooner
Je pense j'ai ratter ma chance
I don't deserve this chance
I'm not sure why I'm asking
But I'd really get to know you
I want to leave this fantasy world
Of you playing my white knight
Of me playing this damsel in distress
Cause we just don't fit these roles
I'll slay the demons on my own
I promise, you will see
Let me show you how I'll slay them
The demons will be my burden
I just need a soft place to land
I know I don't deserve it
I know it's asking too much
But I want to know you
As you know me
It may be too late
But I'm still asking
Est ce que j'ai ratter ma derniere chance?
Have I burned another bridge?
Or can I know the real you?
Cause I've shown you the real me
Je sais j'ai ratter ma chance
I need to slay these demons
I need to stop playing the scenes in my head
I need to leave this fantasy world
And see the truth
I never knew you
But you knew me the best
I never knew you
But I made you a dream
I never knew you
And I'm sorry I never tried
I missed my chance
But I still want to know you
Can you give me that?
I know I don't deserve it
But I need to know the real you
Car j'ai ratter ma chance
The future is unclear
But I need to know the real you