Never

The rain falls and I just stand here. Numb for you, needing you, yearning for you. But you're not coming back. I know that now. Never.

The word echoes in my head as your tires roll and you disappear into the distance. I would go inside, but I can't. I can't force myself to move. What did I do to make you hate me so? How did I hurt you? I ask myself in my mind, but even if I said the words, you would never answer them. It's too late now.

I can see you as you grabbed your keys and walked past me, tears brimming in your eyes. WHY? I just don't get it. Tell me! What did I do to you? Please… I need to know.

The tears slip from my eyes now, as I stare at the spot where your taillights are slowly fading. I still can't move, not when I tell myself. The rain wets my hair and my clothes, but I pay it no mind. I'm thinking about you, as I'm sure I always will.

I can move now, but it doesn't register to me that I've collapsed to my knees in our driveway. My pants will probably be stained with oil from when you fixed the leak in your car last week, but I really don't care about that.

All I care about is you; my every thought is of you. I fall forward, sobbing, and I'm sure my elbows will be bleeding, but nothing registers except the look in your eyes as you left. The hurt, the regret, the sadness.

I lie here in my despair as the rain falls around me, leaving me to cry in peace. Even the rain realizes that I need to prepare myself for eternity without you. Even the rain realizes that you're not coming back. Never.

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A/N: This was actually inspired by a dream I had, but altered to fit reality. I'm sure Rajah and Isha know what dream I'm talking about. Anyways, please review and don't forget to read all of our other stuff.

Isis-Ankh