Why do I?
by: trista groulx

Why do I even try anymore?
Why do I keep caring?
Why do I try and open my heart?
Tell me, why do I try?
Cause it always ends the same
It never fucking changes!
The story always ends the same
Me, crying, alone in the dark
While you lead your bloody life
Why do I even try anymore?
Why do I still care at all?
I'd be easier to just close my heart
Never let another in
Cause no helps heal me!
No one's my shoulder to cry on
My soft place to land!
No one's fucking there for me!
I'm always left all alone!
But I'm the rock!
I'm the pillar!
I'm the fucking strong one!
Why do I even fucking try anymore?
Cause no ever tries for me!
I'm not the fucking rock!
I'm not the fucking strong one!
I, too, need a place to cry!
I've fallen!
I've lost my path!
But unlike you, I'll get up alone!
I need to help myself
But first I'll help them all!
No fucking time for me!
I'm the fucking strong one!
I'm the pillar!
I'm the rock!
But can't you see?
I've fucking fallen!
And I'm bloody stuck!
But someone needs me!
To hell with my needs!
I, too, need help!
But I'm the fucking strong one!
I fucking need help too!
Can't you see I'm lost?
Can't you see I'm broken?
Doesn't it matter about me?!
I bet you'll forget me!
But I don't know fucking how!
My battles to be fought alone
No one there to help me!
Not the way I tried to help!
Why do I even fucking try anymore?
Everything I touch turns to shit in the end!
All because of me!