That had felt so... right. God, now that I say it, it sounds totally cheesy. But it was like, I actually kind of felt comfortable dancing around him. Which is huge.

Because I suck.

I'm not even kidding. I really can't dance. Or sing. Or anything, really.

Actually I can paint. However, this is besides the point.

Clearly, I spent the next two days obsessing over him. Being like, oh god, where'd he go, or, what if he's hurt, or whatever. okay, more than two days. Dammit.

and I spent about half the time poring over these words:

Hey Lady--you got the love I need
Maybe, more than enough.
Oh Darling Darling Darling, walk a while with me
Oh you've got so much...

Many times I've loved - Many times been bitten
Many times I've gazed along the open road.

Many times I've lied - Many times I've listened
Many times I've wondered how much there is to know.

Many dreams come true and some have silver linings
I live for my dream and a pocketful of gold.

Mellow is the man who knows what he's been missing
Many many men can't see the open road.

Many is a word that only leaves you guessing
Guessing 'bout a thing you really ought to know, ooh!
You really ought to know...

I came up with about a thousand different scenarios for what it could have meant.

Unclear, really.

Actually I was pretty sure I knew what he was trying to say.

Because I did know, really.

He needed to go. The open road. Knowledge. Figuring out himself. I mean, that's what it's all about, right? Mainly, I think he was trying to say he was okay. But I don't really know, now, do I?

Anyway, I was like, damn. This actually really sucks.

Story of my life.

ANyway, I was like dude yo, no.

Actually not. Why would I say that? Because I am sort of a spaz. Understatement of the year.

But yeah. What I meant was I was like, oh, I have to go to school. Damn Mondays.


Well, for the first couple hours, it was a pretty regular Monday. Except I was painfully aware that Konstantine was not around. Dammit.

So yeah. I was innocently doing the Precal thing, when suddenly --

Hold up. (Hah! It cracks me up when people say this.) Actually I was not. I was walking to precal. The precal thing? What?

Okay, anyway, I was innocently walking to Precal, when suddenly --

I feel this hand clamp onto my arm. Hard.

"Natalia." Z said it softly. "I've got to talk to you." I just pulled my wrist out of his grip.

"No." No way in HELL was I going to talk to some sneaky probably psychopath who really didn't like me. At all. I mean, HONestly, do I look STUPID to you? Okay, fine. BE that way. Do I sound angry? Well I am. Dammit.

ha, no, I'm kidding. Sort of.

"Wait, no," Z's voice was soft behind me. I almost didn't turn around, he sounded sort of... sad. God, I'm such a sucker for that.

So as I turned around, his hands were on my shoulders. I looked at them reproachingly and he sort of slowly took them off and put them up in the air a little in a gesture of surrender.

How odd.

He was like, "Look, Lia, please, please, talk to me. Just for a second, please... ?"

I stared at him. Did Z just say please? To ME? This was truly a twilight zone moment. I sort of looked at him. He didn't have any eyeliner on, and his hair looked all... clean. Wet from a shower. No headband. His eyes were... soft. Desperate. Pleading.

He looked all, well, tragic, I guess. Like... a kid or something. Like a really attractive kid. Okay, gross. But yeah. I'm not going to lie. I mean, he and Az are from the same gene pool. But I was suddenly struck by it, I mean, usually, he's covered in a layer of grime. However --

So apparently I had been staring, so he was like, "Jesus, am I going to have to beg??"

And I snapped out of it and was like, okay, okay, fine. Fine.

He looked at me. A little incredulous. "Thanks."


so - sorry about the uber-long wait and the short chapter, but my computer is back! so they will be quicker, and more exciting... get pysched for some major Z & Az action in the near future!!!

I love...

Shattered Mirrors - yeah, sometimes you've gotta do these little short chapters that are only slightly obnoxious. ). yeah, and that's Az - he's pretty damn cool. Anyway, thank you muchly!

tawnyfawn (x alot) - thanks! your reviews make me happy )... which reminds me, I've got to go check on yours! and definately yay for constructive criticism... and spunky boys! they make me happy, too...

Jorja-Mae Andrews - never fear, Konstantine will be here! Okay, that was cheesy. Don't worry, however, because he'll be back and at large before too long ). And, and, and, I swear the next update will be quicker... and longer... and more exciting... the story's just beginning! thanks!

unerasable words - computers are terrible when they lose things... makes me sad. but yes... many things are going to happen! yay for drama... and i will, i WILL be quicker, really! thanks!

obsidianserpentine - thanks! computers are obnoxious things, aren't they! yes, he'll be back... and yes also, poor lia! yes... they're both slightly obsessed with led zeppelin at the moment, so, you know...

Hera-Rose 88 - thank you fabulously! yeah, it definately would have been a bit much if they were just suddenly... all friendly and stuff. But don't worry, dear Konstantine isn't like that... and their drama's just starting!

Behind-these-eyes - I know. ::hangs head:: but I'm done with exams! and my computer's working! so more updates... anyway, Konstantine says to tell you that he thinks Seth is a cool guy, and says he will ::shifty eyes:: let you give him a little hug, maybe. ). yeah, and you'll definately be seeing his past come up... soon. thanks!

Ergo Insane - Definately not the end. definately definately. so never fear. and I do! 3. thanks!

DreamScary05 - awww... he is coming back, he is! and I'm trying, really! and thanks! oh, and where did your stories go? I checked today and... nothing!

thank you, and please review!