"I'll wait outside." I whispered, trying to remain calm as my knuckles turned white because of my clenched fists.
"Okay." My friend, Sake, gave me a pat on the shoulder before turning back tot he teacher that she was conversing with. I was out of the classroom in a second. The only thing in my hands was a textbook, which I let loose and into the air. I watched it sail and fall onto the dirt. Everything was so shitty and I knew I was slowly losing it. The break point was approaching and I felt it start to come over me like a fever.
I screamed and fell to the ground, crumbling into a lump. Tears were streaming down my face as I controted myself into a ball. Rain fell on my head and the cool touch made me cynically laugh. Of course my break down had to be terribley clichéd. For some reason I was slightly relaxed by the fact that the breaking point was finally upon me and the thought of a calm breakdown made me cynically smile. I felt someone bend down next to me and put their hand on my shoulder. I looked up with blood shot eyes and saw the face of the last person that I expected, Garrett Dychtwald.
"Loki." His warm breath met my neck, causing a chill to run down my spine. This was probably the last thing that I needed. Garrett had always been in my life, but was never in my life. Just a constant reminder of something that I couldn't have. Strangely enough I found myself wrapping my arms around his neck and crying. "It's just too hard to handle." And Garrett gentley rocked me back and forth, the rain soaking the two of us. It was one of the those grotesquely clichéd moments that you seen in teen movies. I could hardly contain my sobs now and it felt good to have Garrett holding me. He picked me up in his arms and whispered. "Lets get out of here."
I soon found myself in cuddled up in the front seat of Garrett's car watching rain swim down the windshield. I knew that I shouldn't be cutting school or riding in the car with the one boy that I had never been able to rely on or trust. After driving for a few minutes Garrett took his cell phone from the dashboard and held it to his ear with his shoulder. I smeared the mascara that was already running down from my eyes to chin. In a failed attempt I used my shirt sleeve to clean my face as I listened to him on the phone.
"Hello, yes this is Loki Kimura's father. I pulled her out of school for personal reasons. Yes, I know the rules. It was an emergency and it was easier to just picked her up instead of going through the whole spiel. Okay, yeah it won't happen again. Thank you, bye." How sly of Garrett to call me in so that I didn't get a cut.
"Hey, Loki, can you do me a favor?" I turned to him and nodded. "Can you call me in? Just say that I'm staying home sick for sixth period. I have no fifth, so that one doesn't matter."
"Sure." I blocked the caller ID on his phone so that the office wouldn't know that it was the same number. "Yeah, this is Garrett. I'm um going to miss sixth period because I have an appoinment. Yeah, thanks Mrs. Harris, you're truly the best." I flipped the phone shut and put it back on the dash. Nervously I pulled my sleeves down over my hands and slouched back in the chair. "There."
"Thanks Loki. Can I ask you whats wrong. You've never seemed like the type to have a complete break down at school. I know I've been an ass to you and you always took that in strides." He was right about the him being an ass to me. I pulled my hair back out of my face and into a tight ponytail. I watched the world that was passing by us as I considered his question.
"Sometimes the world appears differently than what reality is. It causes you to lose sight of the things that matter most to you. The things that help you in the end." Garrett seemed momentarily surprised by my insightful answer. He always had seemed to think that I was stupid, which I was far from.
"Are you saying this personally?" A slow song came on and I felt like I was in a movie, I wasn't really living this. I was actually really in class, I just didn't know it.
"The world sometimes feels like its moving so fast that you can't keep up. And you're just lost in the see thru."
"Are you trying to confuse the shit out of me." I couldn't help but laugh, for once I had confused him instead of him confusing me. He usually had a knack of making me so confused that I couldn't think.
"Well, sometimes –"
"The world doesn't make sense and all you want are answers to questions that you don't posess. You don't even realize that the questions are what you are looking for, not the answers." I laughed again because he seemed to have a knack to understand what I was trying to get across.
"Exactly." I leaned my head on the window and watched him continue to drive down the street, still not sure where we were heading. Suddenly I knew I shouldn't be in this car, something just didn't feel right. Part of the tip off was that I had an intense urge to smoke, even though I don't smoke.
"I can't just let you out on the side of the road in the rain."
"Tell me why you want to help me." With that Garrett pulled over in the nearest parking lot and put the car in park.
"Sometimes you see your own pain in someone else's."
"You don't. You make people's pain without even realizing it or caring when you do know."
"There are a lot of things that you don't know about me."
"The things I do know aren't flattering at all. The things you've done to me aren't flattering to either of us."
"I can change that for you." Garrett reached over the seat and kissed me hard on the lips. At first I kissed him back, but when I realized what I was doing I shoved him away. I practically jumped out of the car and shoved my hood over my head. My feet led me in the direction of my house without a thought. From behind me I heard Garrett turn the car off and slam his door closed. The familiar beep of the car was heard over the pounding of hail.
"Loki! Wait!" I turned around to see Garrett stop right in front of me, breathing heavily. "Don't go." My hand went up in front of his face and I went back tow alking to my house. There was no way that I was getting back into his car.
"Get the FUCK away from me Garret Zachary Dychtwald." Garret grabbed my elbows and spun me around so that I was facing him. "What don't you understand about get the fuck away from me? It doesn't mean touch me."
"Don't treat me like this."
"Don't treat you like what? The dirty piece of shit that you are?" Instead of walking away I started to sprint towards my house, ignoring it when Garrett called my name. Somethings never change.