Thoughts of the Killing

I know it's permanent

I know it's solid

But I know it breaks down

Breaks down the souls of loved ones

It's forever for a temporary problem

How can I make you understand?

I don't want to feel this pain stretching

I don't want to feel so torn

Mend me back the way I was…

The way I was happy once

It's so untrue what others say

I just want to escape for that moment

Not knowing I'll never come back

So why go through it again you ask

Because I can't seem to get full from this hunger

My search to feel whole hasn't ended

But it's been so long that maybe it's not there

Maybe what I need isn't there

I'll have to start my search anew

My heart does a flip of not knowing what's next