By Me and Another

I am shaking from an illness I can not seem to
control - it bleeds from me. I call her fear.

Fear is something that governs me, takes total control
of me, fear of living, of dying, of loving, of succeeding
and of failing.

"It's all in the mind" he whispers to me - but I
whimper, "no!" She trails me, like my shadow
- outside of me. I am sure she lies in wait, my
precious frightened self.

Fear of oneself is my biggest of biggest horrors.
Everything I do , every decision I make is based
upon the fear of making the wrong decision. I live
and breathe fear. It runs through my veins , a poison
in which I can't seem to rid myself of.

We were only going through circles.