The Kick I Needed
by: trista groulx

It was the kick I needed To get me out the door
Knowing after the show
I'd be able to sleep
Peacefully, next to you
It was the kick I needed
But it's not there now
And it all felt empty
Cause the end was gone
Those moments of real sleep
It's all gone now
No way to get it back
No real reason it's gone
It just has to be
It's just the way it has to be
That's the way it is
It was the kick I needed
My hope for the week
Those few hours of sleep
Without those dark thoughts
But it's gone away now
Never to return again
I'll never hope again
I'll never dream again
Cause it's all over
And those restful night are gone
Never to return again
Cause I'm not worth the fight
Cause I'm just too much pain
I was too dependant
It wasn't really you
But on those few hours of sleep
All I wanted was some slumber
Finally a peaceful slumber
No darkness, nor bad thoughts
But that's all gone now
Never to return again
Cause I asked too much
More then you had
And this is my damnation
This is my personal hell
With all the thoughts in my head
And not one night of rest
It's all I hope for
It's all I wish for
I know you'll never return
Though it's all I want
I know you'll never understand
It was the kick I needed
To get me out the door
Those few hours of slumber
Now gone forever more
Cause you'll never understand
I know I asked too much
And now have lost it all forever