It's like that then?

Don't ask me if I'm okay
It hasn't been that way for ages
Don't hand me a box of tissues
Tears sting less when you let them fall
My house of cards has collapsed
And dreams have crashed and burned
I told you to give way
I wish you hadn't listened so well

When I dance out in a circle
With a smile upon my face
Look up a little farther
It hasn't been that way for ages
Black makes amber stand out well
So why haven't you noticed my eyes
You only notice when
There's rain falling with black and pink running suit

No one's asking for your pity
Or for you to ask what's wrong
Walk on by
(Don't listen to me so well!)
I'm a pathological liar
So he tells me It's all in my head
It never happened
I'm just a fuck up
Never'll be anything
Just standing out in the rain
Laughing at the world
Because one more scar
Couldn't hurt

I'm emotionally unstable
Hard to control
My visions bad
Blurry whether or not there's tears involved
Is that symbolic enough for you?
Or do I need to sing about a rusty dagger or a steaming goblet?
Some things just aren't that simple

Stop pretending to care
That hurts worse then you know
Oh know, I'll keep smiling
Even if it's all for show
Just to please you
Keep your appetite for falsehoods satiated
I know how much you love my wit
My ever loving sarcasm
My dry humor is biting
Biting your tongue is rather hard

Sometimes my vision fades
And my nose goes numb
while I'm so angry at myself
that I stop breathing
And never once
has a cut gone so deep as I need
One little reminder
To tell me I'm fucking up still
Tracks on repeat
I think I'm making you sick

Don't ask me if I'm okay
It hasn't been that way for ages
Don't hand me a box of tissues
Tears sting less when you let them fall
My house of cards has collapsed
And dreams have crashed and burned
I told you to give way
I wish you hadn't listened so well