A/N: Wrote this because...I feel...sorry...and I think I'm a bit more of a burden then I have to be sometimes. Looking back over this...I sound insane...but I need to get it out...And for the record...this isn't about any one specific person-just the one line-it's about....everyone. Anyways, R&R me, I'll R&R you. Thanks.
I'm wrong and I'm sorry
I'm bad and I know it
I didn't mean to be me
And I don't know how to say this
I'm sorry I hurtyou
And I know I did
I'm sorry that I burdened you
AndI'm sorry that I wrote it
I don't know how to say what I feel
Which is why I write; to make me real
"No, Pammy, it's okay, honest-
You didn't hurt me, you broke no promise"
I did, though, I just can't recall
If it was yesterday or today
Or if it's already tomorrow
I'm blanking out and my dreams
Are broken like wishbones tossed in the trash
And I can't tell you what I need
From you taking anything would be taking a crash
Falling, falling, my emotions drop slowly
They spill onto you and I'm just so sorry
And you sit there wiping them off
Telling me I just need to chill out
Chilling out, calming down
Impossible for me
I need to be tough; I need to not drown
Learn to swim and I'll be okay
But I couldn't keep afloat today
Late nights staying up thinking of all of you
All of my friends and what I put you through
I'm sorry, you don't need to listen
And to rant and call...I've got no reason
I just feel insanely alone
And I can't trust anything or anyone I know
This patch of heart I have left is going to break
There is no amount of pressure I ever knew how to take
And I know you think I'm sorry
So you tell me it's okay
But it's not and I'm sick of your lies
Just tell me the truth for once today
"You're paranoid, Pammy, just relax"
But everything hurts when I calm down
If I stay on guard and sharpen my edge
Maybe everyone will leave me alone
And I'm sorry for writing this
Thousands of phone calls
''Just get over it''
But if not my words what am I?
Just another teen wanting to live?
Another hopeless not wanting to die?