I have failed to remove you from my heart
despite hiding all evidence of your existence
I still ache with desire
desire for you- love for you
There's no other way to explain it
explain my hurt, my want, my need
Not a moment goes by without
invading my thoughts
I smile when you rape my memories
and as bittersweet it is, I need those moments
as they become a lingering emptiness
because I know that
I will never hold you again
no others do I long for- only you
but you do not want me- not only me
and I begin to wonder if you ever did...

Written May 8, 2005