Out you get
Onto the field where you said
You'd blow your brains out.
You always go back
On your promises
Don't you?

She is gone.
You must live.
You cannot be yourself too freely
Or you will implode:
It's not safe in here
But she's watching me
From inside
And I can't get away
From her eyes:
She's so persistent
In escaping.

Something so jumbled
Except when I'm on fire
On my own:
When I'm burning
To move away
For good
And never see this place again.

This is my stop.
And this time I won't get off
The violent part can wait
Until I'm on my own.