Figment of Happy

I wish I had that kind of happy

That genre that makes even the tiniest flirt

Seem colossal

I had it

But something went wrong

I'm still trying to figure it all out

I miss it all

I really do

But this is best for all of us

I'm sure of that

But I can wish for that happy

Dreaming of a mirage

Thinking of an illusion

Pondering a figment of my past

Maybe more than a figment

But still my past

I wish for happy

I dream of happy

I threw away happy