(Its so surreal)

Turn the latch,
dont let the monsters in.
Locked in tight my little world..
while the banging only grows louder.

Close my eyes,
count to ten.



As the hammer falls on the nob..
your breaking in..
shut you out..

And my tears turn into time.

Window of dreams.
My only escape..
climbing threw the portal of unreality.
bang slam
Whats that?!
Oh god,
to late,

shes in..

here to destroy my faith again.
Shes unlocked the door,
let in the oger..
Trapped inside my own crumbiling castle.
The screaming starts..

Close my eyes,
count to ten..

will my prince come today?

And my tears turn into time.

Someone stop them,
someone save me..
another bruise is added on..
sick art work of a abusive love,
one after another,
my dreams all shatter..
"Im not lying!" but my cries do no good.
I can make it all go away..

Close my eyes,
count to ten..

I want to know a human touch,
filled with nothing but love,
adoration..
need,
want.

And my tears turn into time.

(Its so surreal)

Will my prince come today?

Im not perfect,
and its not ok.
Im not pretty,
and i wont be, no matter what you say.
Im to fat, im to thin,
im to smart, im so stupid,
halfbreed,
whore,
bitch,
slut,
trash..
Im not perfect,
and its not ok.
Because your no Jesus either.

Close my eyes,
count to ten.

And my tears turn into time,
Ive cried so long trying to find,
the reasons why i care what you say..

Will my prince come today?

Im
not
a
fucking
child
anymore.

Im not a fucking child anymore.

(its so surreal)