Trust

I've never felt it before
I've never felt that love
That warm feeling people always speak of
I want to feel that trust
I want to feel that love

I've never been in love
I don't know if I want to
I don't want to come crashing down from my high
I don't want to be hurt
I guess it's all trust

I've never had my first kiss
I don't want to give that away
I don't want to let go of anything, for fear of disaster
I don't want to give my trust
I can't take back what you want

I am selfish, yes, I know
I am afraid of hurt, of rejection I'm afraid you'll turn me away someday, turn me down
I don't want to feel any of that
I don't want to feel love

I'll keep my trust, thank-you
Yes, I do really trust you
But I can't give you my trust, I can't take that chance
I know what can happen
I've heard it so many times

And yet, part of me wants to feel love
Part of me yearns the warm, happy feelings
I want to know what it's like to know that everything is alright
I want to know if you really do feel that good
I am feeling oh so curious

I suppose I could give you my trust
I suppose I could lend you my heart
But you must promise me this one thing, this one special promise
Please don't break my delicate heart
And please don't betray my trust

A/N: Yes, this is a true poem...I don't know if it's for anyone in particular...but it is my true feelings.