1What do I deserve?

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I thought something scary

I never thought it would enter my mind

But last night as I lay in bed

I wondered

Do I deserve to be loved?

Instantly, I calmed myself

of course I do

everyone does

but still I couldn't help but wonder

My eyes were wide and all I could do was wonder

How did I ever get this sad?

When did I start to disappoint myself?

Do I deserve love?

I must trust that I do

But I think I need to love myself

Otherwise

what's the use of someone's love

if I can't even accept my own?

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Crap or not crap???