China Doll

You hold me like you care
You brush my long brown hair
You dress me in your whimsies, red and black
I hardly leave your side
Even when you need to hide
My painted eyes and frozen smile stare back

I wasn't always frail
You brought me down that trail
You broke down my defenses one by one
I'd do anything for you
And I thought once you would, too
But I lost out when all was said and done

A china doll both pale and small
A favorite toy, best loved of all
A source of aid and comfort now and then
You broke me once before
So how can I be sure
That you won't leave me carelessly
Beside the road again?

You said that you were mine
But I found out in time
That I was yours, and you were his alone
But still I held on tight
And I prayed I wasn't right
That I was more to you than I had known

When you told me to withdraw
That was when I finally saw
That you'd never really wanted me to stay
You were happier with him
You had kept me on a whim
So I gathered up my pride and walked away

A china doll both pale and small
A favorite toy, best loved of all
A source of aid and comfort now and then
You broke me once before
So how can I be sure
That you won't leave me carelessly
Beside the road again?

I was scattered without you
But your cruelty wasn't through
You couldn't leave me to my quiet pain
You waited two weeks more
Then you rapped my bedroom door
And told me that you wanted me again

Slowly you restored me
To my porcelain-like glory
And the cracks were too fine to be seen at all
But every time I smiled
And I let myself be styled
I weakened more behind that painted wall

A china doll both pale and small
A favorite toy, best loved of all
A source of aid and comfort now and then
You broke me once before
So how can I be sure
That you won't leave me carelessly
Beside the road again?

Now I'm waiting for the day
That you'll heedlessly betray
And I'll be alone, as I was from the start
I'll be through the looking-glass
And all my hopes will pass
And I'll curse my foolish dreams and foolish heart

But I know myself too well
I'm still under your spell
And my weakness is still stronger than my pain
Though I know it isn't right
If you'll only hold me tight
Then I will be your china doll again

A china doll both pale and small
A favorite toy, best loved of all
A source of aid and comfort now and then
You broke me once before
So how can I be sure
That you won't leave me carelessly
Beside the road again?