Sorry guys but I am not native English speaker, so my language is horrible. I hope it will get batter with chapters

Alex

I was watching TV, no actually I was trying to watch TV, and I just wanted to stop thinking, to forget about Amy, that Amy is out there with another guy on a DATE!

That freaks me out!

Oh GOD why can't I stop thinking?!

But it pisses me off!

Every week she goes on a date with a new guy, then she calls for me to pick her up because she didn't like the guy and I who have been by her side her whole life, she didn't even notes me.

Yes we are best friends but just being friend don't work for me, what I want from her is not so friendly. I loved being a friend with her for 10 years, but it seemed that for her I am not a man I am just her best friend, however we have grown up.

The phone ringing cut my thoughts

"Hi Amy, where are you THIS time?" I asked.

"I am in front off the mall" she answered with her sweet voice.

Amy is a very beautiful girl, I can't think of someone who is more beautiful than her and because of her beauty she ALWAYS has boys around her.

When I arrived she was waiting for me by the mall, the moment she saw me her face has lighten up, I love her when she smiles.

She set on her seat silent she knows that I don't like what she is doing, every week after I pick her up I will lecture her , I till her that she shouldn't go out with a guy innless she love him, that she shouldn't play around.

Amy

I know Alex was angry. I don't want him to be angry, every time I saw him acting like a "big-brother" I feel so sad, but It has been long time since I fall for him still he treat me as his baby sister. All the other boys are all over me it's just him, its just the one I love, he never looked my way.

This fact makes me so angry so I decided to make him notice me, to make him jalousie and then make him my boyfriend.

I started going out on dates every week and every week it is a new guy. The best part was when I got back from the date to find him waiting for me; it looks like a boyfriend waiting for his girlfriend. It's Just like we are going on a date.

It's just that the plane did not work, I hated being with any guy other than Alex, so stopped going out with guys.

I didn't want to tell Alex, I didn't want stop my fake dates with Alex, to not being able to see him every week, the thought itself breaks my heart.

I looked at him but he was concreting on his driving, no he was ignoring me. But, why?!

"Are you mad at me?" I asked "why are you mad?"

"I am not mad" he just simply answered, his answer told her to shut up, that he is in a bad mood to talk.

"You are, you are angry every time you came to pick me up, am I bothering you? Or is it that you don't like going out with other guys?"

I asked. I secretly wished that he will answer the way we see in TV; that he will tell me that loves me, that he has been in love with me for ages and that he is jalousie because of all the dates I had.

He didn't answer; when I looked at his face he was chewing his lips.

"Please answer me" I told him

"But I don't have any thing to say" he was harsh.

"If not why are you chewing your lips? You do that when you try to stop your self from saying something." I tried to look at him in the eyes, but I wasn't able to. His eyes were on the rood.

"Amy I AM trying to drive, I need to concentrate. So please stop talking to me" is it harsh again? Or is he angry?

"But I need to know. I also want to know what you think about me, about what I am doing. So can you please answer?" I decided it will be my last try.

"You want to know WHAT I THINK?" this time he was angry and harsh at the same time, no he was more than that.

"I think that you ARE sooooooo BLIND Amy, so blind that you cant see …"he never was able to complete his sentence; the other car was in front of us. He tried avoiding it, but it seemed imposable to avoid.

He suddenly turned into me and he took me into his arms. It seemed like he wanted to protect me, but I haven't any time to think or to look at his face. All I remember is the sound of a horn, the crash, the sounds of metal twisting and glass shattering.

Alex

I was hearing voices and I think that I woke up, but I wasn't able to open my eyes. I felt exhausted; I think that I should get back to sleep.

Just when I close my eyes I remembered what happened, the accident and Amy! Yes, Amy!

I got right up, I forgot about everything else but Amy. I opened my eyes as I shouted "AMY !!?"

"He had woke up" a voice said.

"Son! Alex!!" a woman come to be and hugged me, her voice sounds happy but she was crying "don't worry about Amy, she is fine"

But thing was that when I looked into where the voice came from I saw nothing but the darkness!

I was frozen for a while trying to understand what happened to me and what is going on. I felt lost, People where talking and running around me, but I wasn't able to see them.

"Mom?" I was guessing, I picked the first choice come to my mind.

"Yes honey that's me, you must be shocked. But you will be okay" she told me.

"But mom don't freak out but, I … I can't see"

"You … WHAT?!" she got up and run out of the room. "Doctor … DOCTOR!" she was calling as load as she can.

After few days of tests the doctor came into the room "Mrs. Nell, can speak with you for a second?"

Mom went out talking with him.

"BLIND?! MY Son is …? He …is …" mom was in shock, so did I . I can't be that they are talking about me; it just can't, there is no way that I will be blind.

"No, I can't be blind, I …I …" I was unable to talk. I was shocked, I think that I had faint.

After that I found out that my blindness is permanent, I made it clear that I don't Amy to know about my condition. I asked mother to tell them that I will going to DC to study and it was true.

I went to the blind school in D.C .I learned Braille and started using a cane. And there I had my high school last year.

I wanted to be a writer my whole life and my and the good thing is that my blindness can't effect my dream, actually somewhat helped me.

Since I lost my sight I didn't have anything else to do, so all my free time was for writing, I won a scholarship and that was how I ended in University of Virginia.

Between my writing and getting used to my new situation, I didn't have any time to pity myself. But Amy was always on my mind spatially at nights. But now I can't have her, I don't deserve her anymore. Its not that I look down on myself, it's just that I think that Amy deserve so much more that a blind guy.

Amy

It has been almost two years since Alex moved to D.C. I don't know if he really went there to study or is it just that he runs from me because he knew about my feelings for him.

The truth is that Alex is such a good student and that was what makes me subspecies.

I have always wanted to go to the same university as Alex, even before I know about my feeling for him. But Alex is so smart, such a smart boy must get to Harvard, but the best I could do was university of Virginia.

I started working as a waitress in a café, its not that I needed the money as much as I was trying to forget about Alex.

But SHIT! I can't think of other guy I can spend my life with a man other than Alex. OH GOD I am going to be an old lonely maid.

Alex

Since I started studying in the university I had been spending all of my free time in the library writing. But now I am not able to write anything.

"Amy" I mumbled while I was thinking.

Yes Amy was the reason why I can't write; in fact I used to think of Amy when writing. But now I had started to forget how her face looked like, after all it had been 2 years since the last time I saw her.

Amy was my sun and in my writing world when the sun is gone I will get lost.

When I told Max, my friend, about it he suggested to try writing somewhere else and not in the library. He told that I should try writing in a café he knew, when I agreed he took me there.

"It's your first time here so I will come to pick you up after I am done with my business, oh and I will order you the best coffee here, I knew you will love it, okay?" Max told me before he leaved me.

Finally some peace, I started trying to force my brain to work.

"Your coffee" the waitress has a very nice voice and she smelled fresh and young a very sweet smell. She made me raise my head and try to look at her face.

"Huh…!" she sound shocked and for a while she seemed frozen.

I forgot that I took off my glasses when writing, maybe my eyes scared her, I looked for my glasses and put them on. At last she moved again a put the coffee on the table and went away.

I searched for the cup with my fingers and started to drink thinking about her, the waitress. Suddenly I felt my brain working again, I had so much in my head, I wanted to write none stop.

I think that I have found my new muse.

I started writing and when Max come to me I wasn't done yet, he promised to bring me there again.

Amy

When I have decided to forget about Alex, to think about him as my teenage love, he appeared right in front of me!

It's just that … that he is different … I think that Alex is blind, no I am sure that he is, from the way he looked past me, when he looked for his glasses and the way he searched for his coffee.

But how can Alex be blind when I have no idea about it! it can't be.

When I got home I called Alex home.

"Hallo" it was Alex's mother

"Hi Mrs. Nell, it's me Amy"

"Amy! How are …" I didn't let her complete her sentence.

"Today I saw Alex Mrs. Nell; it's just that he didn't saw me, even when he looked in my direction" I was rude.

"God … Amy, it's …" she was wordless

"Why didn't I know about it? How can you hide such a thing from me?" I was about to cry

"Amy, Alex didn't want you to know about it, he asked …"

"But, why?"

"You was so dear to Alex that he didn't want you to pity him"

"so he was okay with everybody else's pity but not mine, Mrs. Nell I wont hang up till you tell me about everything"

And that was what happened, she told me every thing she knew, she even gives Alex's mobile number.

The next day I quit my job in the café, I don't need to forget about Alex anymore. I need to make him love me. I waited there for Alex; I didn't have to wait for long time.

He come with his friend who leaded him into a table, I stand up preparing myself as I waited for his friend to go out of the café.

When his friend was out I dialed Alex's mobile

"Alex is speaking" it was really him, I had just make sure about it

"Hi Alex, it's me Amy" I saw him, stiffed for a while "it has been a long time, what have you been up to?"

"Hi… Amy…, everything is going well, I am fine, what about you Amy?"

"Awful, I am awful Alex, my best friend ran away from me 2 years ago and he still not able to tell me why"

"Amy!"

"Alex I know everything, but you had never thought about telling me, right?"

"Since when did you …?"

"Since you came here yesterday" now I wasn't talking to him on the phone, I was standing in front of him talking directly to him.

"Amy!"

He closed his eyes, covered them with his hands and looked to the floor. He was avoiding me.

… To be continue

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Sorry guys but I am not native English speaker, so my language is horrible. I hope it will get batter with chapters

Please R&R, I have a good idea of what am I going to do next, but you are so welcome to suggest or comment to help me writing a batter story …. OK?

And ah … thank you for reading this far !! I LOVE YOU!!