I don't understand

why I feel so alone

if you are here

saying you love me

I wanna believe it

but I'm afraid to share my heart.

all the things you promise

I push you away

I run so fast but my fears are deep in me

I would wish you hate me

love is something I can't take.

the tears draws emotions

how can I understand?

if I hug you

it'll be hard to listen my heart

I wanna change it

but I'm afraid to know new feelings.