Chapter 5

By: RedneckWoman

A Promising Future

Though, with a troublesome past, I do have to face it, everyday. Ending out stronger in the end. I don't want to sit back and wallow on it to see how I might do something differently, because I don't think it's right. No point in trying to see what I could have done differently for my sake for me to be the least bit more sane. I personally like being the insane person I tend to be. I'd be lying to myself if I said nothing was wrong, something is always wrong. But, it tends to show more times than others.

Trying to go for a scholarship in figure-skating, for a few reasons, the first and foremost reason why I want to get a scholarship and leave Ohio, is to get as far away from my dad as humanly possible. Second, I'm trying to help out my mom so she doesn't have to put so much money into a college education for me, since money is always tight, since my father never pays his child support like he should. Third, I love figure skating, and I want to turn pro, with OSU not having any open skates I can't skate like I want to. But, my coach says he sees potential, and with me already being a two-time silver medallist, I think I can possibly pull it off. Fourth, figure-skating makes me happy, it's something I'm good at, it's something I enjoy, I want to keep up figure-skating no matter how expensive it gets for skates and whatever else I need.

One of my friends is promising me such a wonderful life, to get away from all of this for when I turn 18, and live with him. He'll protect me, he'll save me from anything that I've gone though and make sure that I don't have to go though it ever again. I really want to leave now and live with him, but since the law prevents it we have to wait for a long while until we can actually do what we both want and both dream of. I really can't wait until I turn 18 so I can drive out of here and just… Be a teenager and never look back upon what's happened to me in my past.

I don't know what my future holds, no one really knows what their future holds, something could happen tomorrow and I'd never see the light of day ever again. Or, I could injure myself to where it makes skating impossible, or maybe just incredibly hard to do, for me to skate with a handicap. Or maybe something good could happen to my mom, she could win the lottery, or something and that way make my dad feel awkward for him not paying and that way mom can buy more things if she needs to.

For now, I'll keep dreaming about my future, continue to try to get away from my past. I don't know what it'll bring, though through hardships and the good times, I still have to remember where I came from.