Murderer

I see what I've done
And I say it's what needed to be done.
I try to stop the tears
I know I'm stronger than this
But there are things I can't control.
I try to put you out of my mind
But your blood is on my hands.
I can't stop this feeling.
Please don't forgive me
Because I'll never forgive myself
I just can't deal with this pain.
But I deserve this suffering
After what I've done.
I can't die because I need to live.
Nothing but my suffering
Will absolve this sin.
No Hell can be worse than this.
I can wash my hands
And just move on.
And although I'll always see this blood
Just allow me this moment
To cry.