It stares at me

Carefree, thrown sideways

The words burn through me

The tears well behind my eyes

I will not cry for you

But I want to

I read the lines

That jump and dance

And my head drops

Bowed and despairing

I will not cry for you

But I want to

I ache,

Can barely lift my eyes to the page

I push my shoulders back

Last line of defence, control

I will not cry for you

But oh how I want to