THE ART OF DROWNING

I took careful steps
Trying to be conscious with the decisions I made.
How wrong I had been
When I left everything for trade-
A decision I now regret
Making me pay debts
one pain replace by another
And so on, so on.

Deep continuous breaths;
Inhale
Exhale
And so on, so on.

Then some blue eyes; icy and cold,
Elegant and bold.
Oceanic infinity; the art of drowning into oblivion
Wet tears and long eyelashes blunt and stir
Always and forever
And so on, so on.

One foot in front of the other
(And don't forget how to walk)
Don't stumble and fall,
Don't swab down and crawl
(You may give them something to talk.)
One foot in front of the other
And so on, so on.

Tangle in emotion
When everything revolves in strong motion.
Vapid hearts are beating.
Abstract art I'm bleeding.
So out of place,
So shrunk in pain
So tired of the chase-
That I generalize myself as "main"
(Still they point at me)

Deep continuous breaths;
Inhale
Exhale
And so on, so on.

Then some blue eyes; icy and cold,
Elegant and bold.
Oceanic infinity; The art of drowning into oblivion
Wet tears and long eyelashes blunt and stir
Always and forever
And so on, so on.

Summer summons us into darkness
Autumn thrills now vanish.

…And all I wanted was to keep on drowning.