I have no mind to make up,
Every decision I make a failure,
Every knife I throw stabs you right in the heart,
If I knew how to stop it,
How to make it work,
God only knows I would,
Why must I dig too deep?
So deep into everything I do?
Makes it impossible to get out,
Without stabbing you again.
I have no heart to break
Everything I do only makes things worse
Every word I say
Every soothing gesture another knife in your heart
How can I make this work?
Is it possible I could?
Every time I think about you, you spin in my head for hours,
It is you who I know I can love, for ever more
So why must I hurt you?
Why do I make you pay for the mistakes I make?
I have no life to take,
One thing I can do,
That can make everything better,
One thing I can do, that nears my end,
One thing to stop me hurting you,
The last choice I will ever make,
And I'm no longer indecisive.
I am only desperate.
And so my decision is made.
And I will make everything better,
And I can promise you,
That I will never hurt you again,
You will never see me slip away again,
And never watch me dig my holes,
And not a single knife will I throw.
No longer indecisive.