I weigh the choices:

Anorexia

Vs

Eating.

Food.

I'm skipping breakfast,

But I'm snacking.

And if I snack, I snack on fruit.

Drink.

I've cut down on soda;

But I'm still drinking two cans a day.

I'm drinking milk at lunch,

But it's chocolate milk.

Medicines.

They make me feel fat,

They make me look healthy.

They've made me gain seven pounds,

And we're still underweight.

Mind.

You're fat,

You're too damn skinny.

You don't have abs,

They're all swollen from all the sit-ups we do.

You have huge calves,

We can back march.

You're thighs are too big,

Lots and lots of muscle on our body.

Me:

I don't want to be thin,

I don't want to be fat,

I just want to be…

Smaller.

I didn't need to gain that weight,

But I don't need to loose it either.

I wish I could make up my mind.