you don't understand
i want to cry it all out,
the tears can help me take it all away.
BUT YOU DON'T.
do you understand,
how heart-wrenching it is every day i don't see you?
how much i bleed inside despite my plastic smile?
the kind of torment you put me through whenever you leave me?
the hellish paradise you make me live my life in?
how i feel?
the indescribable feeling,
the unspoken emotion,
the silent screams,
behind my i'm-so-happy mask?
NO YOU DON'T.
you just DON'T want to let me see you again.
i tried letting pain numb myself, (all i got were more scars)
i tried to forget, (the sleeping pills didn't work)
i tried alcohol, (the headache imprinted multiple images of you instead)
did you understand that?
i want you back,
you know it.
you're just choosing to ignore me,
am i really transparent?
you can see right through me,
and taking full advantage of that.
i know i'll be able to forget,
because i don't believe in life after death.
i know you can hear me,
as i whisper my last