Dwindling Sanity


spent my day alone in
a room, just a room
with no windows, no doors
no light to reflect upon
nor desires to embrace
- - -
confined in freedom
wallowing in the midst
of--of heartbreak
another tally mark
carved on bare flesh
- - -
sanity slowly slipping
the pharmacy in one hand
unspoken words, secrets
written on the other
i'm breathing, but dead
- - -
never knew that darkness
could only grow darker
never knew deep thoughts
could eat me alive
salvation, can you hear me
- - -
i threw away all insanities
wishing for a little sanity
only to find that the things
that drive me insane the most
keep me sane the longest