Is there any point in attempting to be close with another?

Or should I just not allow anyone in?

I'm sick of it;

I cannot take it anymore.

Not another time can I go through the pain

Because I know that I will not make it out alive.

So here I am, shutting down.

I'm closing myself;

No more.

No more hurting, no more pain.

No more feelings of disconnection.

No more feelings of neglect and abandonment.

You cannot leave me behind;

It's too late for that.

It's lights out;

I'm abandoning and walking away…

From myself.