A.N:The story here is true,I still don't have my ears pierced,and these used to be my reasons why.Now,I have none of them left apart from that I am just scared.
I never had my ears pierced because I wanted to feel real
With no holes shot through me
Just as God "made" me
With no false bits in me
(apart from my mind
which used to feel so out of place)
I never wore earrings because I didn't believe in pretty girls
(silver studs,netball posts & waving blonde hair)
With lovely smiles
That changed the next time they found a new person
to talk to.
I never had my ears pierced because I was scared
I never wanted to hear the crack that said they had shot me
(I never wanted to be told that I made so much fuss and it never hurt at all)
& I didn't think it was natural to stick gemstones into my skin
Like little fashion accesories
that weren't part of me
(now I understand why whoever-was-speaking-to-me's eyes swivelled to my ears
they were deciding if I was "cool" or not)
I never had my ears pierced because I wanted to feel real
but that was so long ago
(and I realise I made such a fuss about trying hard not to feel beautiful)
And now
I feel fake(er)
remembering
(that I never really cared if I was natural or not)
when I used to draw little circles on my lobes with pretty-little-pink-feltips.