Emotionless to Father

Father called me today
I was asking myself wither or not-
I felt any emotion
'Did I?' I asked my heart
it didn't answer
for it was still denying truths
it went through too many traumas
it was confused with yes and no…
ups didn't happen much
it went more like a storm most times
all rain, no shine
for when my father called,
it was more just a winter's day.
My heart was too numb to know
What emotions were.