Secrets

Firstly, I apologise for keeping secrets from those I have kept them from.

But everyone has secrets. I'm just one out of billions.

An when I do tell someone my secrets, it's hard. I have to trust that person, sometimes completely, before I tell them.

I don't trust easily. It's not something I can give away on a whim.

So when I do... it means something. Too bad it can have mixed consequences.

Like this night, this very night, I told someone something, thinking it would be all right because I trusted her, and ended up hurting her.

I didn't mean to, I understand that now, and I'm sorry I did. I broke her trust in me, and the guilt comes close to overwhelming.

If I could take it back, I would. But I can't.

I. am. truly. sorry. That's all I can say. It's up to you if you believe me or not, but I hope you do. And I will try not to hurt you again, as much as I can.

But you all have to understand, even you Vincent, that I am not perfect. I try not to hurt any of you, but now and then I am going to, no matter how hard I try.

I am not perfect, and I do have secrets, just like each and every one of you.

My name is Jaime.

I breathe. I eat. I haveall of the other basic needs of humans and animals. I fall flat on my face if I try and do a handstand. I'm terrified of drowning in the sea. I make a squeaking sound for no reason when I'm nervous. I have the usual range of emotions everyone has.

That's all. No more. I'm sorry for having secrets and hurting you all.