Destruction to Discovering Me

The smoke leaves my lungs in a sudden gasp
My breath stops short while my mind fumbles
Trying to find out why I've been causing destruction
Why I've been having to inhale such poison
Why I've been leaking the blood
Why I've been tripping on streets
Why I've been needing to be high
Why I've been having to drink until my memory leaves
Just to feel whole, just to feel something at all
Tearing apart my image, my mind and heart
Searching through the confusion, to find out who I am.